The One.

I wish to find the woman, the one that I can give all my effort and energy to, one love making session where she actually deserves everything I could give. The beauty of sex, the absolute beauty of effort, the looks, the feelings, the touch of a males hands running down the back of a females for absolutely hours on end as if there was no morning to the night.

As if it could last forever, no need to rush anything. As if the sex could last, by not even taking place. We could just lay there and I could give her every-fucking-thing she could ever "mentally-stimulatingly"(not a word) desire and deserve.

Imagine being blown away so much by not just the sheer greatness of the sex due to it's physical feel, but due to the every mental desire of yours being filled. Would this, mixed with my mentality, not result in her wanting, needing, and enjoying me forever?

I have spent the past year and - before being single- the last several years of my life thinking of just everything relating to human interaction, the minds of females, the diversity of feelings and emotions involved in sex.

One problem; I am yet to meet a female who is everything I want, everything I need, and everything that deserves me. And if so, do I deserve her?

I honestly believe I will have to settle for second best. I am not sure if there is anyone like me, anyone in this giant world who will fit my mental requirements. But for the sake of optimism, "I WILL FIND HER!"

You say to me, "You're only 20"... as if I have till I'm 90 to find that girl. Even if i live that long, I would only have ~10 years to spend with her.

If she is out there, I need her ASAP and she needs me ASAP. For what is the use of living the life alone, when it is proven the point of life, the instinct, is to find a life partner and live in complete happiness and harmony together.